Being More Human

Last night one of my dogs, Cargo, got really aggressive over a paper towel she wanted (weird…I know). I reached over to throw it away and naturally she growled but then actually bit me quite violently.

My hand was tingling and pulsing in pain.

While both of us ended up in the same room, both pouting, and both sill upset… I thought why am I still mad, at a dog, when the moment was over? I’m the human, don’t I have some power in this?

When I thought about why I was still upset, I went to move my hand and was quickly reminded of the pain…. and there it was.

The reason… the answer.


This brought me to my brokenness, my humanness. It got me thinking, is this why we hold grudges? Is this the reason we hold back forgiveness and love.


At least with a physical wound, it bruises on the outside and you can actually see it’s healing process. Once a physical wound is healed, it’s healed- no more pain. An emotional wound, deep in the heart, can last forever if we let it. That’s why even when we think we’ve healed and we are “over it,” but then see that person, get reminded of what happened, or like Allison Fallon once told me, “we hear the story we told ourselves,” we feel the pain all over again. We feel the grudge, the ill-will, the insecurities, the confusion and the withholding of love. We purposely withhold who we are from others. 

Pain and wounds from within can invite this confusing cycle that seems to never end.

In the midst of me being in a silent argument with my dog, I remember asking myself, “I’m the human, don’t I have some power in this?” Even though my physical pain was still there, (okay… fine…my feelings were hurt a little too), I still went to Cargo and cuddled with her. I knew that once my pain was fully gone, I would have been loving on her anyway, so why hold a grudge and withhold love? I didn’t wan’t to be passive and hurt her back just to get even.

I am human, and I did have power in this situation, and the power was love.

The power is love.

I know, I knowww – Silly how I’m relating all this to a dog, but our wounds crave and need permission to go through a process. A process of letting it hurt, crying it out, feeling it through, throwing pillows, getting angry, whatever it is- we must allow ourselves this process of healing. We are human and thankfully, because of Jesus Christ, we can go to God in full transparency and speak out about where our heart is, how we are feeling and the weight we are carrying.

He is bending His ear just waiting to hear from us so He can do miracles. God can heal the deepest wound, He can relieve us from the heaviest weight, He can protect us from enemies, and He can even do exceedingly above all that!

But it’s a process.

Love during the process. Some take longer than others (like me), let that be okay. Give yourself understanding of the process. The process is full of forgiveness and forgiveness is full of love and love is full of you and I.

You and I are LOVE.

-Proverbs 3:27

How often do we withhold love by being passive? If we have words of wisdom or knowledge, have healing hands, discernment of spirits, the gift of prophesy, or increased faith and that’s the gift God gave us, then when we hold back, we are also holding back the power of God to move in that persons life and also holding back God’s miracles from the world…(yes, yes, and yes- God is God and can do all things, but He created us to live for Him in obedience). If we know we are called to love people, why not love them anyway, even through the pain. Hate, bitterness, jealousy– none of that will help our wounds heal faster….but love…

Love is our super power.

Love heals. Love saves. Love forgives. Love is in our human DNA because God is love. We are made from love, of love, for love and to love. In fact, not loving creates this agonizing internal battle because we begin to resist being who we are. Let’s turn the resist into a full surrender. A surrender with our arms wide and our hearts open.

We are human and being human is love.

Humanness is extraordinary.

Let’s be more human.

Let’s LOVE. 


Meet the pain of my life, Cargo. A dog with many issues, but who is safe, understood, cared for and loved. I found her underneath a car in Hilton Head, SC when she was just a puppy. I didn’t have it in me to just leave her where I found her, so I put her in my car and with her in my lap, we drove 5 hours back to my university and I secretly kept her in my dorm room.. After the long drive, I found it fitting to name her Cargo, because she was and is such precious cargo to me. Sometimes her fear shows because she use to be so lost and she lived in such fear …until one day, someone cared enough to care for her and never wanted to see her struggling or to feel alone again. A good owner found her.

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Guess what?

You and I don’t have to live in fear any longer because we have been found. God isn’t going to leave us where He found us. You and I have a good owner. He is an excellent owner, a safe owner, an owner of love whom we can trust. God loves you, God loves her, God loves him, God loves me, God loves all of us. Let’s also love who God loves. Jesus was in a lot of pain on the cross, but Jesus loved through the pain. He loved us anyway. How breathtaking the cross is.

We are all sinners, we all make mistakes, we are all hurting, BUT we are also all learning, growing, and just living here surrounded by God’s grace. We are surrounded by love. God loves us anyway. Let’s just love.

Let’s love anyway!

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Love On!


  1. Hi Kristan,

    This was such a wonderful and very encouraging post that God has led you to speak from His Word, praise God! Your post truly encouraged me to love one another because God has loved us first, as He is love.

    John 3:16, “For God so loved the world that He gave His only begotten Son, that whoever believes in Him should not perish, but have everlasting life.”

    Luke 10:27, “And Jesus answered, ‘You shall love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your strength and with all your mind, and your neighbor as yourself.'”

    1 Peter 4:8, “Above all, keep loving one another earnestly, since love covers a multitude of sins.”

    John 14:15, “If you love Me, you will keep My Commandments.”

    These are some excellent verses from the Word of God that will encourage us as His children, to love the Lord our God with all our hearts, soul, mind, and strength, and to love our neighbors as ourselves. Genuine love is demonstrated by our actions of obedience, and not by our words and thoughts only.

    Thank you so much for such an amazing post, my sister in Christ! May God continue to guide you into speaking His love and truth, and persevering in obedience to His Word. God bless you!

    In Christ,
    John H


  2. You know what… this will be like a blue ball but I`m an atheist (perhaps more agnostic I guess..) Still I`ll follow you and like this post because I agree with you. I love the fact you are spreading the need to love more and being human this is what we need. We do all need to love more. If we all loved more perhaps the world would be a happier more peaceful place. We have more in common than many think eh 🙂 thank you .


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